What do you think of me?

Maybe I am writing this to make myself feel better or just so I can think sanely. I think its a mixture of things. I really dont know what to think anymore. At home, my dad is mentally abusive to me.I have it VERY bad and many people have told me that but dont know what to do. He is a control freak, controlling virtually every element of my life. I am in my second year of uni now, and i left to halls which was a great break through for me. My parents promised if I stayed in the same city as them they would support me financially and my mum promised she wouldnt make me go home. She lied and they kept making me go home or threatening to cut me financially. In the city I live in, I am entitled to a loan but I couldnt possibly be without my parents support. I have been crying virtually evey day and I have sought support for that, but it was realised that these problems will go away once I can support myself. During the year, I spent as much time I could with my boyfriend. He knows everything about me. I felt that all my other friends were fake. I made new ones in university, but they are all in different cities. I have realised terrible things about my boyfriend. He has tried to pressurise me into sex, he is extremely flirtatious with other girls and he is a big liar. But I act as if I am indifferent to all that as I feel as though I dont want to be with him in the long run and have confidence that once I am able to support myself, I wont need him anymore. But I did a very bad thing. I told him we should take a break, and then after explaining to him why for all these reasons, I told him I had lied and in fact it had been my parents who had told me to stop seeing him. When I had said we should take a break, he had turned on me and said he was going to break up with me the whole time but he had not gained the courage and felt freeer already. I instantly felt hurt and that the whole world was genuinely fake. It was painful and I felt I needed him again, I would just play along in this fake world as I have to be void so my parrents dont hurt me. So I said that and he tookd back everything he said and was supportive of me. And said he loved me. But I feel sick as I dont know what to do now, I dont really want to go out with him but I dont feel I have the same security with ordinary friends. They will not come with me to my door when it is dark so I can be away from my parents for a night. I need your opinion? What do you think of me? Do you think I am a bad person and just long gone?